The ghost inside me.

It hit on me pretty hard. We, simple people with humble backgrounds and have no talent to spare, are not exceptionally bright, have no excuse to stop whatever that we're doing as much as we hate it. Being 20 years old now, I'm not sure of what I'm capable of.
I realized that I'm not really a talkative person, especially to people I'm not close with. I don't normally express my feelings in front of people, so I have this tendency to write everything
on my blog or something. It's pathetic how I write a lot, but when it comes to conversations, I have nothing to say. It's awkward when I told myself to talk and talk and talk but I ended up being silent cause I'm in lack of ideas.
And it's even more awkward how I can transform to someone else when I'm surrounded by my close friends, or my family. I can be very hyper and crazy and I talk a lot, although 90% of the things that come out from my mouth are nonsense and utterly stupid. I just don't get it why I'm like this.


I don't like loud people.